i lightweight got my groove back in the last month or so, which has been fun. i now know, to my core, my new drinking normal. this does not include 4+ hours of consistent imbibing.
incidentally, i've grown comfortable with vomiting. it's like, my growing up thing. not that anyone ever likes puking, i know. but throughout my public education when all us girls had a "special" lesson wherein we were told about eating disorders i always freaked out at the fact that one could make themselves throw up. (the idea that they wanted to or maybe even liked to was as incomprehensible to me as any of the asiatic languages.)
now, approaching 28, i understand that the ability to throw up somewhat on command is a fine skill for those times when nausea just isn't enough anymore.
peace,